I just don't care anymore.?

Felt like I spent many years working incredibly hard to achieve goals. Graduated nursing school after trying to get accepted for many years. Now there are no jobs. I work caring for about 20 patients a night. I like it but I feel unfulfilled. Its the same monotonous probs over and over a ton of responsibility and little guidance. Plus we are not supposed to get OT. yeah right. My neighborhood is full of crime and not long ago I got a gun pulled on me by the cops for walking outta my house. Been in a long term relationship that appears to be going nowhere, its a running joke with people about how we will never get married. I got really excited about a new grad position 5 minutes from my house in the ER...I was in the top 3 and didn't get it. I had a day off a couple weeks ago for a friends bday..she kept complaining about how she didn't wanna go. We go out and some hookers push my sister and try and start a fight, I didn't hit anyone..get my hair pulled as the bouncers throw me out and then they try and taze me. Today is my first day off in 2 weeks and I'm too damn tired to do anything. I need to make alot of changes but dont know where to start.